I’m so busy practicing my oration today. But more than that, I’m also busy with other stuffs - dealing with my friends. But before I start, I would like to share I quote. I got this quote from my friend and classmate jho while I’m browsing her multiply account. And I can say that this quotation of her’s really struck me, because it is somewhat connected to what happened earlier this day.

The quote goes like this:

“Be careful with what you say because friendship might end in a split second just because of the stupid word you uttered.”

Gosh, I can feel the tension rising. Tomorrow is the big day for me - I will recite my oratorical speech in front of everyone. I’m nervous, but the thing that makes me feel anxious the most is what happened earlier between me and my friends. We had this little misunderstanding. Yes, only a little misunderstanding but the effect is big.

As I’ve said in my previous posts, I love my friends because we’ve been together since our second year days. And more than that, I treasure every moment we’ve shared. All the laughters and the tears. The ups and downs, twists and turns of life. All those tragedies occurred, but our friendship remains strong.

We have surpassed a lot of difficulties, challenges, trials and the like but we’re still standing. But how come now? Only a little misunderstanding. Yes, a little misunderstanding was able to shake our friendship. How come? I dunno what happened.

A lot questions were left in my head, unanswered. Though I want to answer them myself, but it seems like I don’t have enough wisdom to do so. I want to go back to the past.. to the moments wherein the 3 of us were all happy together back in second year. But I guess, these are only mere memories - memories of our past.

I want to do something to keep this friendship standing. But I don’t have the power. If only they know what I feel. If and only if.

Sorry guys, I’m not in the mood to give comments now. I’m so emotionally stressed, and pressured at the same time. I promise to return all comments tomorrow or today if I feel a lot better.

And by the way, please pray for me - for this little misunderstanding to end, so we can start once again. Thank you guys.

I would like to thank my hostee, sis memesh for giving me this:

I love it sis! Thank you Â

Also, I would like to share a quote. Sis aea used this quote to motivate me on my twisted dream so that that dream will no longer be twisted.  So here’s the quote:

“Never give up to your dreams until you’re ready to wake up and make them happen.”

I do agree with that quote, and it’s so applicable to me. I’m on the verge of making my dream happen, so why loose hope?

On Wednesday, I’ll stand in front of everyone and recite my piece with full confidence.  And when I finished reciting, I know I’ll feel the feeling of satisfaction, and I’ll be much glad. I’m not for the win, what I want to do is to give my best shot  Just like what my friends did in Pasiklaband.

Sadly they didn’t win, but I know they’re winners because they’re able to make it upto that day. And they’re able to give their best. Congratulations to them for being finalists  Gosh I’m so proud of them.

By the way, the winners of the Pasiklaband is the band of my classmate, che. Â I’m also proud of them.

My friends did their best, and I’ll also do my best  Promise!

 Got to go now! I’m going to return some comments

It’s final, I’m going to be the class representative for the oratorical competition in this years Talk Fest.

It’s been always a dream for me to recite an oratorical piece. In fact, I’ve even turned down character portrayal two years ago. And now, my dream came true! I’m the representative for oration. But it seems like being an orator is one of my twisted dreams.

I’ve recited my piece yesterday and today to our english teacher. She told me that she’s not convinced with my delivery.  She even said that as if I’m reading my piece. I felt sad when she said that to me, but I have no choice but to accept it.

Yes, I know that my delivery is very poor. I have a very feminine voice. And I know because of this, I cannot persuade people. I cannot catch the attention of the audience. And, oration will only be a twisted dream.

This is my very chance to grasp that dream of mine and I don’t want to fail my section and my family, including those people who believed in me that I can do it, and, of course, myself.

I’ll do it no matter what. I still have 5 days before my big day. I got an ample time to practice my piece.

Please wish me luck

Before I start, I would like to thank my wonderful affie, ezzy, for remembering me on their Thanksgiving Day.

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I have a new category it’s called Heart Talk. So much with my new category because it’s not really what I want to discuss today. But first, I would like to share a quotation, it’s a forwarded text message actually but I think it shows some significance. While reading it, I suggest that you also formulate your own thoughts, ideas, queries, comments or whatevers about the quote.

So, here it goes:

If two past lovers still remain friends, it mean two things: they’re still inlove with each other, or they never were.

Ooooh… My comment is this one –>Â . When I recieved that message, I don’t know what or how to react that time because before I recieved that, my ex texted me. Â He even called me! But we’re not able talk because I’m busy practicing my oration. Â What a sudden experience!

My reaction, Yes, I do believe in that that quote, statement or whatever.

I think it is possible that two former lovers can still be friends because they’re still inlove. Possible isn’t it? Possible because through friendship they can still be as close as they wanna be. They can even use this as a cover-up for their hidden feelings. In other words, the feeling is still their but the moment is gone. So the best and most possible means they can be together and to “re-live” the moment is by being friends, “good friends”.

But I also belive in the second statement that if two past lovers still remain friends they’re never really lovers. There is also a possibility that they’ve interpreted the feeling of infatuation to the feeling of love. But you cannot blame them for doing so because love, as said by many, is the greatest among all feelings. And everyone wants to love and be loved back in return.

Now, as for me, I think that me and my ex are still friends because we’re not actually lovers when we’re engage in a mutual relationship. We just misunderstood what love really is. Maybe it is also because we both hunger for love - to have a lover so that we can feel how to be loved back in return.

I’ve realized those when he called me last night because no feelings are involved. And I’m happy that we’re friends - casual friends. Just like how we started. And it’s best to leave it that way. No more no less.

So, how about you? I’m sure you’ve also had your realizations about this.

 Take care everyone! I’m going to blog hop now and return some comments. I’ll try to return all of them tonight, if possible. But if I’m not able to do so, I’ll continue returning comments tomorrow

Another rambling from me

Time flies so fast. I can’t believe that we’re on the 3rd week of november already and only a few days to go and it’s christmas already. Then after christmas, new year. And that means, my farewell to my second home is also fast approaching.

Our teacher in PE already told us the tentative plan in fourth quarter. I’d say that we’re on a very busy track next year if this plan will be approved. There will be a carousel and a 2 week intramurals! And us seniors will be taking our finals on the 2nd or 3rd week of february. Then, graduation.

I want to graduate but that means goodbye to my friends, and to my second home. I want to go to college, but I don’t want to leave my friends either.

I love my friends very much, well, who doesn’t anyway? The three of us were together since second the year.

And my friend iris, we’ve been friends since grade 6. I can still remember our ups and downs, twists and turns that time. That wacky girl who doesn’t have the word “seriousness” in her dictionary is a total opposite of me, yet we still remains close and happy. And my friend mary, I’ve met her during my second year days. She’s nice and loud, and doesn’t care what other people think about her. I like her for being like that - she’s simply unique.

 I’m holding my tears while typing this. They’re like diamonds - very hard to find and precious. But I’d say that they’re more than that. Because diamonds can be stolen, but our friendship can’t be. I hope we’ll last forever.

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By the way, to all deviantart members, do you also find it hard to submit your work? Grr.. the category thingie is pissing me