I’ve already recieved an email from ate ems regarding the domain she’ll register for me. I’m so excited because I have a new domain. But this not mean goodbye to this site. Yep, you read it right.. I will not move from this site to my new one.

I’ll do my best to keep my 3 sites all in good condition. Yes, I have 3 - this one, a secret site and the newly registered site courtesy of ate ems.

I’m sure you’re puzzled why I need to keep 3 blog sites. Of course I have reasons, but I don’t know if they’re valid enough to answer your queries, in case you have. Well, my top reason is I write randomly. My writing style is not smooth, literally. I love to write anything and everything under the sun BUT in a generalized manner. Second is I rank my posts. And last, having more than one site is really a hard job but I findit FUN!

Call me a nerd or whatever you want, because I know am not! LMAO. Just kidding. I just love to blog because am able to exercise my freedom of expression. I’m just thankful that I’m able to control myself because this site is not as sarcastic as the real me I’m really a sarcastic person.

Can somebody please answer this query of mine. I wonder why can’t I make really long posts! The longest post that I had done only contains 500+ words. I just wonder why am not that talented to write entries that contains a lot of words and is very long. I know am not making any sense here, but just wondering 

And for my thesis (this is my favorite part.. LMAO), only one more component and am up to the next level. The component I’m talking about is the longest part of the thesis… the review of related literature.

I’ll return comments tomorrow.. sorry, I simply can’t do it now.

My thesis is sucking every brain juice that I have. I just finished my Abstract, Statement of the Problem and Significance of the Study. Though these parts are just minute ones, I find it really hard just to finish each one of them.

I’m struggling very hard to meet my deadlines and to keep my 2-days-ahead pace. I really wanted to finish this thesis earlier than deadline because I wanted to assure myself that I’ll be marching on March.

My thesis also helped me forget about what I’ve written in my previous post. I guess I should worry for my future but I should worry first for my thesis because without this, I will not graduate. My Fundamentals of Research teacher is really strict when it comes to deadlines. When she mean it’s due on this date and on this time, it really means that so.. no more extensions.

I’ll just think about my “future college life” after I’m already assured that I’ll be graduating. Prepare for the worst I guess.

And speaking of the worst, I think I’ll have a migraine. I feel like my brain is being squeezed. It really hurts.. a lot!

Tomorrow is my free day because we don’t have classes. My dad will again accompany to some colleges, universities and hospitals. Yep hospitals, because some well-known hospitals here in the Philippines were also offering Science Courses. Well, in my case it’s Nursing and Pharmacy.

Honestly, I want to study Nursing in a hospital and not in a university.  I guess it’s practical because your mentors are not just intellectually wise because they can also perform the real thing. Got what I’m saying? I’m more than sure that tomorrow will be another loooong day for me.

Me and my aunt had a chit-chat yesterday, she asked me why my courses in mind were all “science-centric”. That is the only time I’ve realized that I didn’t consider my other field of interests.

Now I’m really confused. Do I really want to be a doctor? Or do I want to be somebody else? If I want to be someone rather than a doctor, what would I be? And what road do I need to track?

In all the universities I’ve applied for, all the courses written in my application form is Nursing and Pharmacy because I can use either of these as my Pre-Med. But how come there’s a voice in me telling me not to continue what I’ve already started.

If I’m going to back off, where will I go?

I always make firm decisions, but how come now? I guess, I also have the right to feel this way. I’m just a human being.

I’ve successfully upgraded my wordpress to 2.1 Ella. Have you seen something like this:

This how my post interface looks like. I know it’s pretty messy, but am very much happy because I manage to figure out how to use 2 sets of smilies! I feel so great right now

I never thought that it’s that hard to be qualified in a quota course. At least I passed.

Maybe you wonder why the nursing course destroyed many dreams. Though it’s a case to case basis. Well, most of my friends will be taking nursing in college. They’ll be taking that course even though it’s not even in the line of their interest. I even have one friend that will be taking that same course though she flunked biology and chemistry. How nice is that?
Me, on the other hand, will also be taking this course in college. I’ll take it as my pre-med. Whew! At least it’s related to medicine. And the fact that Filipina nurses are very in demand abroad is another plus point because I want to practice medicine abroad.

It really didn’t shatter my dream. In fact it will serve as my stepping stone. But I really pity those who’ll be taking this though they want to.

At least, greener-pasture is waiting for them abroad.

I’ve been tagged by Khita. According to this tag I need to share 5 secrets and tag 5 other people.

1. Profane words are not new to me. In fact, most or even all of my expressions were profane words.

2. I started drinking alcoholic beverages at the age of 11.

3. I’ve tried smoking at the age 10. Yep, tried - there’s a difference in trying and doing the habit.

4. Though I drink, occasionally, am not doing it whenever I have a problem or so. I only drink if I’m happy. I don’t want the alcohol to ease every pain am having because I know it definitely wont.

5. I have a lot of friends. Everyone is welcomed to be my friend, but I choose among these friends to whom I can spill or tell my secrets.

Now I’m tagging aea, elie, tiniwini, pen and *drum roll please!* ATE SHARI!. Oh yes! ATE SHARI you need to spill 5 of your secrets!

I’m so pressured with my thesis, this is also the reason why I’m 2 days ahead from my classmates (we’re following a step-by-step procedure in making our thesis). Pressure really makes more focused on things. Grrr… I’m such a procrastinator. I love rushing things up.

Moving on, I’m so fond of beautifying myself right now. Product of pressure, I guess. I’m usually like this whenever the tension rises up. Meaning to say, I have a very weird attitude whenever I feel pressured. Yep, weird.

My outlet, for now, is beautifying myself. Yep, you read it right, beautifying. Now, I wear make-up in school. I’m glad that they haven’t noticed it that much Well, except when I’m wearing eye liner. It really helps lessen the pressure I’m feeling. I feel calm whenever I apply blush-on on my cheeks or when I hide the dark circles under my eyes with the help of concealer! There’s even a time that I’m wearing a bronzer! It really felt good!

I’m chatting with aea right now. She told me that “Nursing destroyed many dreams”. Yep, she’s very right. How about you? How would you react on this?

For the comments, I’m really sorry. I’m doing my best to return them, but I guess my best wasn’t good enough.