Tomorrow is my free day because we don’t have classes. My dad will again accompany to some colleges, universities and hospitals. Yep hospitals, because some well-known hospitals here in the Philippines were also offering Science Courses. Well, in my case it’s Nursing and Pharmacy.

Honestly, I want to study Nursing in a hospital and not in a university.  I guess it’s practical because your mentors are not just intellectually wise because they can also perform the real thing. Got what I’m saying? I’m more than sure that tomorrow will be another loooong day for me.

Me and my aunt had a chit-chat yesterday, she asked me why my courses in mind were all “science-centric”. That is the only time I’ve realized that I didn’t consider my other field of interests.

Now I’m really confused. Do I really want to be a doctor? Or do I want to be somebody else? If I want to be someone rather than a doctor, what would I be? And what road do I need to track?

In all the universities I’ve applied for, all the courses written in my application form is Nursing and Pharmacy because I can use either of these as my Pre-Med. But how come there’s a voice in me telling me not to continue what I’ve already started.

If I’m going to back off, where will I go?

I always make firm decisions, but how come now? I guess, I also have the right to feel this way. I’m just a human being.