I thought midterms means a new beginning but it seems like it’s not. I’m still as busy as a worker bee.

I better got used to this life because that’s my only option. But still it’s hard! It’s harder than I have ever imagined.

Speaking of something hard, the art of adapting prolly is the hardest. Especially when it comes to adjusting to your new timetable. FYI: I’m using the same timetable since classes started but I’m still not used to it! Damn!

Comments off! I need to return the other comments pa! ahaha!

Prelim period is over… hello midterms!

Yes! I’m very much agitated over midterm period because this is the period wherein I can start again. Prelims is not very good to me - I was not able to get the grade that I really wanted to have. But it’s ok, it’s my fault anyway. I admit that I didn’t take prelim period seriously. But I’m very much glad that the scores I’ve made are good - but they’re not enough.

“I did my best, but I guess my best wasn’t good enough…”

Oops! My bad, my bad. I better not sing that song because it won’t do me any good. And what’s the use of sulking anyway? For me, sulking will just make you realize that you’re such a fool and it’s already the end of everything. Duh! The reflection part is good but sulking per se - NOT!

I have a new hostee! Would you believe that this girl is only 12? By the way, she’s Jill. Visit her by clicking her picture.

I’ll be out for a while because have to study, study and study. Prelim period is just around the corner and I have to get decent grades so that I can proudly show it off to everyone.

This is the first time that I’ll be on leave due to my exams - yep, this is the very first time. I guess, and I hope, that I’ve already dropped my old habit - being very lazy during exams. I really hope so.

I really thought that I’ll be happy but with my performance, I believe not. I try not to regret anything and everything that I’ve done. Because no matter how bad a decision is, there’s always a good end-result but the problem is we never appreciate the good. We never appreciate it because we only see the negative outcome. We didn’t even notice that it’s a good and bad package.

When something bad happens, we never noticed the little good things.

And that’s what I’m trying to do right now - trying to appreciate every little good thing/s that’s pouring down on me - it’s not easy.

This post is entitled “If you don’t feel it…” because I don’t feel it anymore. I really thought that by doing this, I’ll be happy forever. But I just don’t feel it and I believe I didn’t. It’s just that my reasoning and thinking capability is affected with the delusions and illusions I’ve seen.

Sorry if you can’t picture out what I’m blabbing because it’s my intention. Remember, I don’t want to post certified private things here but right now, I just need an outlet to pour my emotions.

To wrap things up, I don’t feel what I’m doing right now but I am happy.

I guess this happiness became my defense mechanism for a very long time. It became my camouflage that made me blend into the crowd. But I didn’t notice that it also covers my true wants and aims.

Here I am once again, plugging some sites. I’m sorry if I’m asking you to visit them and I haven’t even visited yours. I’m really sorry.

So yes, if you have time please do visit them.

This is just a quick-post because I just want to plug those beautiful girls and their wonderful sites. And I’m off to return your comments. I’ll try my best to return as many as I can but before that, I’ll update my other blog.

Comments is on because I want to hear something from you. Not a comment but just something from you. If you want to exchange links with me, do it here.